Dear mother (Olive) your secrets will probably have gone with you when you died a week ago. B (my half brother) described you in his tribute on Wednesday, as a HUGE life force, a bit of a tornado. So much energy at times he compared you to the sun. "To a child, warm and essential to life, as an adult you sometimes had to limit your exposure, otherwise you'd frazzle" I wouldn't know about the childhood bit, having met you in my late 30's. But even amid your unpredictable behavior, I was aware of your amazing energy, perception, need to be needed and loved, generosity and assertion of character. it was difficult for you to maintain a relationship with me or my children, your secrets prevented that! However when Seana died I phoned you and your compassion was something I will always treasure. In my last blog, I describe how it went a long way towards my belief that you are now caring for Seana in the eternity of life.
The one huge bit of advice you gave me, ironically, was to own my place on the planet, regardless of what you or others did or said to the contrary. I agreed with you, the un-learning (and new learning via human revolution) I've given to myself enabled me with the assistance of loved ones including the hands on planning and physical help of lovely L (my eldest daughter)to find my way to Yorkshire in order to offer you my final respects. Unbelievably we arrived despite the snow and cancellations of transport out of London. Once there, we took our place amid love and warmth for us from everyone. Thank you L xxx
I feel closure with you now Olive, until we meet again, in the happy times, I am making the causes for us to have together, with love, respect, and gratitude your daughter Ebun. x give Seana an enormous hug from me and L x
